Her Love is Infinite - Chapter 6

Ok, so I got some major explainig to do. I've been MIA for the past couple months and haven't been posting. I'm not one to point fingers but I blame school and my lack or time management skills. I'd really love to hear your feedback because i kinda don't know if you guys like where this story is going or not so pleaseeee tell me what you think.  :P

Here's the chapter that's been looonnnnggg over due:

-F
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Previously...

It wasn't more than 15 minutes until my mom came into the nurse's office with a 3abaya thrown over her head, her hijab barley covering all her hair and her face paler than ever. She's followed in by my dad who gave me the coldest look like I've just killed someone. They went over to the nurse to introduce themselves and she tells them what happened…

"Well some boys said they saw Fahad go over to his classmate Jasim in the changing room with the intention of picking a fight. From what we were told, Fahad has been bullying Jasim since the first day of school and when he tried to hit him in the stalls Jasim only hit back in self defense with the help of a couple other boys."

WHAT?!

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 "HE'S LYING!" I shouted my voice raspy barely audible "wallah he's lying," tears started forming in my eyes "you know I wouldn’t."

"3amy let me explain, Fahad wasn't the one…" my dad gave her one look and she went silent again then he turned to me, his face red with anger "Chub wala kilma. I'll deal with you when I get home" he then asked for Noura to be kicked out. Even though I begged the nurse to let her stay, she followed my father's request and told her to leave. 

The nurse went on, "your boy has a couple injuries but nothing too serious. According to school rules, he will be suspended for one day since it's his first offence. I recommend he go see a doctor tomorrow and take the rest of the week off to recover."

While my dad was paying attention to the nurse my mom was looking at me with a strange look on her face. It was a mixture of disappointment, sadness, and concern. But there was something else… her eyes were studying my bruises. Going from one to another almost like she knew something wasn’t right. 

Her attention was brought back to the room when my dad got up and thanked the nurse for her help then came over to me to help me up. I hoped he'd be gentle but his hands gripped my arm as if it was a lemon he was trying to squeeze. As soon as his hands touched me my head snapped back and the veins in my neck stuck out as I shouted from the top of my lungs. It seemed like the more I expressed the pain I was feeling, the harder he'd press so I tried to keep it down. Biting my tongue, lips, shutting my eyes tight or trying to focus on anything else, but the pain always brought me back. When I opened my eyes I was already on the wheelchair being pushed by my mom and my dad ahead of me leading us to the car. 

When we got to the car, he just went in without offering to help me in or anything. I was left to hop into the back seat with only the help of my mom's gentle hands under my arm to support me but let's be honest, even my mom's soft touch hurt. As soon as my mom and I got in, he took off like a mad man. 

The car ride was long and silent. My dad took every opportunity to go on speed bumps. Sometimes even going on a different road that he knew had an extra bump or two just to punish me and when we got home, he parked the car and left my mom and me to help ourselves. 

We got to my room with me shouting out in pain at least half a dozen times. Some parts of my body became numb so that helped ease the pain… kind of. It wasn't a full minute since I sat on my bed when my dad came barging in 

"DO YOU KNOW HOW EMBARASSING IT IS TO BE PULLED OUT OF WORK BECAUSE MY WORTHLESS PIECE-OF-SHIT SON CAN'T STAY OUT OF TROUBLE AT SCHOOL?! I don't know why I waste my time with you. You're a waste of money, time and space. If it weren't illegal I'd probably get rid of you but it's a shame I can't"

My mother heard the sounds and came in running "Aziz! You do NOT mean that! Go have a smoke and calm down and istaghfir rabik. What you're saying is haram. He's your son, you shouldn’t be saying things like that!"

He just looked at my, took out his pack and left my room. My mom tried to come and comfort me, play with my hair but it was no use. He said what he felt. He wishes I was gone. My own father doesn't want me…

I told my mom I was tired and wanted to sleep. She knew I was lying but she left me alone. I just laid there staring at the ceiling when I heard my phone buzz. I reached into my pocket, opened it and saw I had a message from Noura...

"Hey is everything okay? I'm really worried about you, your dad did not look happy" 

I ignored it and tried to get some sleep. I kept hearing my phone buzz but I didn't bother opening it. My eyes started feeling heavy and I slowly drifted off into a dreamless sleep. 

When I woke up I looked at the time and it read "11:45". My bladder felt full but I tried telling myself I can hold it in but it was no use, when you gotta go, you gotta go. I pushed myself off my bed and moved slowly to the door of my room using the wall as support. I made my way to the bathroom and on my way back I saw my dad's cigarettes on the coffee table near his bedroom.

My mind started going back to what my mom said to my dad "Go have a smoke and calm down" she said…. I always read that smoking helps take people worries away but I never tried it because of the bad side effects everyone keeps talking about but HEY, he doesn't want me alive anyway…  so I took it back to my room. 

Once I got on my bed I took one out and put it between my lips, took the lighter out and clicked it open. I was scared but lit the tip of the cigarette anyway like I've seen my dad do a million times before. I sucked through the filter and felt the smoke enter my mouth and go down my throat. Suddenly I started coughing. The smoke burnt every inch of my throat it reached and it tasted like dirt but the determination to give my 'father' what he wants was greater than the pain…. So I took another drag… and another… coughing every time until I felt my lungs were about to give out and my head spinning. 

By the time I was done I had a major headache and felt so short of breath. I put out the cigarette and hid the pack under my pillow and went to sleep. 

To be continued...

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Her Love is Infinite - Chapter 4

Hey guys,

Sorry for taking a long time to post this chapter but I just got back from the most amazing vacation ever. You've all been nothing but supportive and amazing. 

With love,

-F

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Previously... 

"Should I tell her?" I thought "is she the one I tell about this? I mean… someone should know and she did trust me with her secret..." I finally decided " I'm gonna tell her."

I opened up my laptop and went on the school website. I logged on using the individual username and passwords we were given and looked through the list of names until I found her full name "Noura Hamad Al-X" and right next to it was her facebook link. I clicked it and was redirected to her page. I knew it was hers because I saw that beautiful face in the display picture. I click 'Send a message' and began typing.

"Hey I think I need to tell you something…"

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I waited and waited for a reply but got nothing so I just gave up and went to nap. I woke up 3 hours later to find a facebook notification. I open it just hoping it would be her and not some stupid game request.

-New message from Noura Al-X- "Tell me."

Oh god this is it… I started to type. "Listen, this is something I've never told anyone. Not my friend, not my teacher and not even to my own parents. All my life I've been the person everyone goes to when they have a problem. 'Fahhaaaddd this, this and this happened' 'Fahhad what do you think I should do about this?' 'Fahad I'm sad, cheer me up?' Yet no one ever seemed to care when I had a problem.  For once in my life I wanted someone who I can go to and spill all what's in my heart and for them to tell me "I'm here for you" or "Everything is gonna be alright" but NOOO everyone cares more about their selves. As to why I did what I did, I was always bullied as a child. I was always told that I was unwanted and an outcast… hence me always sitting by myself. I honestly never thought I would come out and tell anyone this but after what you told me today, I felt like I could trust you and if there was anyone to tell, it was you. Now I get if you don’t want to talk to me or deal with someone with this much problems, but it just felt good to open up to someone."

My fingers started to hurt. Once I started typing, I felt like weights were being lifted from my shoulders. I read what I wrote and pressed send and waited. There's no turning back now. Someone knows and I hope she understands.

5 minutes passed….

20 minutes…

50 minutes…

Nothing.

"Did I scare her off?" I started to think… "I KNEW I SHOULDN’T HAVE TOLD HER! WHAT MAKES HER ANY DIFFERENT TO ANYBODY ELSE?! THEY ALL RUN AS SOON AS YOU…"

I was cut off from the sound of a new notification…

-New message from Noura Al-X-

"I was literally sitting here for the past hour just reading your message over and over again. I feel so close to you right now. No one should ever feel like they don’t belong. I've had the same problem as a child but having someone by my side that I can open up to always seemed to help. If you would let me, I want to be that person. That person you come and spill all your problems to. You made me a promise the first time we spoke. Now I'm making you a promise. I will never ever make you feel like you're all alone in this world. I'll be here for you when you're at your lowest point and will stand by your side even when you're wrong. "

I felt a lump starting to form in my throat. My eyes were starting to tear up… tears of happiness. I've never felt so accepted in my life.

That night something happened. Something that hasn't happened for as long as I can remember… I went to sleep happy.

The next day I had P.E first period so I didn't see Noura at all. I put my bag in one of the lockers in the changing rooms and went into the changing stall. After I was done I opened the curtains to find Jasim and a couple of other boys waiting for me. I tried to avoid them but they pushed me back and corned me in the stall.

"Who do you think you are to put your hands on me?" he started. "You know I can end your life right now. You and that skanky bitch."

"Don't talk about her like that" I was starting to get annoyed…

"Oh he's defending her! How sweet… Why do you even care about her? Do you know her? Are you dating her? Oh…. I know! You're sleeping with her!"

That did it. I threw a punch that landed right on his jaw and down he went. I saw this as an opportunity to get away but didn't make it 5 steps before I was pulled back by two guys while the third tripped me and the rest started to kick me. I tried to put my hands in the way but there were too many feet pounding my body from all directions and I couldn't stop them all. It felt like being in a car crash. I feel like I have no control over my limbs and at times I feel like I'm looking down on my own body but with each strike I come back the body with the pain. With each kick, I could sense each individual cell bruising, bursting and each nerve end blasting out electric shocks. I felt my heart beating in my head and I could hear it in my ears. 

I took one last look at my attackers and blacked out.

To be continued.... 

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Again, sorry for taking a while to post this and i would really appreciate some feedback on the post. 

Her Love is Infinite - Chapter 3

Hey guys!

Thank you for being nothing but sweet in your feedback, I'm really happy that I'm writing again and I have you all to thank. For this chapter I'm back to writing in Fahad's P.O.V.

With love,

-F

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Previously...                        

I went up to her, helped her off the floor and moved her away from the crowd that was now all walking back towards the school since recess was over. I held the still crying girl into a warm hug ensuring her "I promise I'll never let anyone hurt you as long as I'm around." She put her head on my shoulder and from that moment on, I knew I was responsible for this girl.

I held on to her for what seemed like eternity. None of us saying anything and just stood there in the middle of the courtyard in each other's arms. I looked down and realized we were 10 minutes late to class.

"Hey if we don't go now we'll get in trouble for sure…" I said softly not to startle her.

She looked up at me, wiped her tears off and just walked away without saying anything. WHAT?! After helping her and caring, not even a single thank you?? By now she reached the entrance of the school and disappeared behind the doors. I guess some people aren’t worth helping.

I decided to just go to my class and confront her later but she wasn't there. I looked for her everywhere to get an explanation but she was nowhere to be found.

The next day I came to school and we had English class together third period. As I entered the class I saw her sitting at the back in the same spot as the day before and the only two empty seats were next to her or the seat on the other side of the room… I chose the far away seat. Throughout the class I'd look over at her when she wasn't paying attention just to admire her. I know I'm supposed to be mad at her for doing what she did but I can't deny the fact that she might as well be the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

Where do I even start?

At first glance she seemed like a normal girl but while I was sitting there several feet away from her, I realized just how beautiful she was. There was just something unreal about her. Her face was somewhat luminous and her eyes were like drops of heavenly chocolate. One glance and she'd make you hers.

"Mr. Fahad…. Would you care to repeat what I just said?" (Dont you just hate it when teachers do that?)

I snap out of my trance and realize the whole class was looking at me and boy did I turn all shades of red!

"Oh em… I'm sorry miss but I wasn't paying attention." I confessed.

"This is your first warning, next time you'll be sent out of class" I tried to pay attention as much as I could for the rest of the period until it was break time and I went straight to the furthest table from anyone and everyone. I wanted to be alone.

Just as I was about to zone out again, I see her at the other side of the courtyard looking at me. When she saw me see her she started to walk over. A million things started going through my head – What am I gonna say to her? Am I gonna tell her how I felt after she left without even saying a thank you? Is she gonna apologize? Before I had any time to answer any of those questions she was standing on the other side of the bench.

"Can I sit?"

"Sure… "I replied without looking at her

"Listen, I know it was wrong of me to leave without thanking you yesterday. What you did was probably the sweetest and kindest thing anyone has ever done for me."

"Ok."

"I understand if you don't want to talk to me but can you just answer one thing for me? Why? Why did you help me? You don’t know me, why would you risk getting into a fight to help me?"

"It was the right thing to do." I answered coldly. 

"Can I tell you something I've never told anyone before?"

"Sure…"

"I lost my best friend to a car accident last year and have been going through a phase of depression. I didn't trust anyone, and my friend, Sarah, was the one that was always there for me. She used to tell me she loved me, tell me how beautiful I am or how important I am just to make me happy and when I lost her…. I lost all confidence in myself. But yesterday I woke up and decided it was time to change. I no longer wanted to be that depressed girl that barley talks to anyone and what you did showed me that there is still good in this world. I want you to see this." She rolled up her sleeves and there were scars near the center of her arm "I used to do this to escape the pains of the world. It was either this or…"

I looked up at her. Not saying a word… waiting for her to continue but she just stopped.

That's when she just got up and left.

I got home that day and repeated what she told me in my mind…

"Should I tell her?" I thought "is she the one I tell about this? I mean… someone should know and she did trust me with her secret..." I finally decided " I'm gonna tell her."

I opened up my laptop and went on the school website. I logged on using the individual username and passwords we were given and looked through the list of names until I found her full name "Noura Hamad Al-X" and right next to it was her facebook link. I clicked it and was redirected to her page. I knew it was hers because I saw that beautiful face in the display picture. I click 'Send a message' and began typing.

"Hey I think I need to tell you something…"

To be continued… 

Her Love is Infinite - Chapter 2

Hey guys!

Loved the feedback I got on the first post! I can't even begin to describe how happy I was that you guys liked it. Someone suggested I write this post in the girl's point of view and make it longer so i hope this one is long enough and just as good.

With love,

-F

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It's been three months since the playground incident and I can still remember it like it was yesterday…

I woke up that day to the most annoying and hated sound ever… the alarm clock. If there was a competition on which inanimate object is the most hated the alarm would win first place for sure. But today was different. Today that annoying sound signified the start of a new me. I'm done being depressed and shutting people out of my life because of someone else's actions. Today is day 1, a new beginning to the new me.

I got up and went straight to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth. As soon as I looked up in the mirror I saw someone else. I no longer looked at what I hated about my body and focused on what I liked.

"I guess I like my hair…" I said to myself as I played with my brown hair. "My eyes aren’t all that bad too. I mean… I'd prefer them to be lighter but brown is good… "My thoughts were distracted by my nanny banging on my door

"NOOR! QUICKLY YOUR BROTHER AND DRIVER OUTSIDE!"

"Okayy! Al7een nazla! Tell him to wait!"

I quickly finished getting dressed, got my bag and the supplies I bought for the first day and ran down the stairs and into the car to find Rashed, my older brother, playing with his phone.

"Taw il nass, any longer and we would’ve been late -.-"

They dropped me off at my school and left immediately since he was already late because of traffic. I walked in through the doors to see the same people I've known for as long as I can remember.  The same boring old faces greeting each other, talking about their trips and how much fun they had during the summer. That's when one face caught my eye… one that I haven’t seen before. He was standing there looking like a lost puppy which I found really funny and cute at the same time. I sat on the nearest bench and just watched him look around trying to take the whole scene in. That’s when I started noticing his features and realized he didn’t look bad at all. Tall, messy brown hair, tanish, mysterious looking…

"oh shitt…" He was looking straight back at me.

*rinnnggg* Saved by the bell!

I quickly got up and went up the stairs to the bulletin board and skimmed through the lists to see which class I was in. There it was "Noura Al-X". Once I found my name I started going through the rest of the list to see who I was gonna be stuck with for the next year.

"She's okay, EW, ew, ew, YOU’VE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME, noisy, he smells… wait who is he?? Fahad Al-X… never heard of him."

I didn't give it much thought and just went to my first period class, English. I sat in the back of the class where I will hopefully not be bothered and called upon by the teachers. Class started and the teacher, Mrs. Farley, walked in and greeted the class and started talking to us about the curriculum which I had no interest in and started playing with my pen. She was halfway done talking when someone came into the class and interrupted her. I looked up and there he was. The mysterious new face.

Mrs. Farley "and who do we have here?"

"I'm Fahad Al-X"

"And why were you late Fahad?"

"Sorry Mrs but this is my first day and I got lost :$"

"Oh alright, welcome. There's empty seat next to Noura near the back"

NOOOO! 

He looked straight at me and immediately smiled… oh what a beautiful smile.  I turned so red and avoided eye contact as he came and sat down next to me. Mrs. Farley continued with the class while I zoned out again and didn't pay attention to anything she or what the teacher in the next two classes said.

*RINNNGGG* Finally break time. I got my lunch from my bag and saw the lollipop my mom always leaves me for the first day of school. I immediately opened it, put it in my mouth and took out my phone while making my way to the playground. I went outside and the sun was shining brightly and the birds were chirping in the trees nearby. As I was enjoying the scenery I accidentally bump into Jasim – the class bully. Being his bully self he decided to put a show on for his friends.

"WATCH IT DWEB"

"You watch where you're going!  What are you blind?? "

By then most of his friends had gathered by and he got really angry so he snatched the lollipop out of my mouth, pushed me and smashed the lollipop on the ground while grinning down at me. I felt a lump starting to form in my throat watching it shatter to a million pieces. My eyes watered. NO! I was not gonna give him the pleasure of seeing me cry.

"Awhh is the little baby gonna cry??" he asked sarcastically.

I glanced down at the floor wanting to cry but I strongly fought that urge and just as I started to break down and cry I took one last glance at him to see him turn around only to get punched right in the face, which was followed by a loud crack that echoed around the playground and the laughter of all the onlookers dying out while they analyzed what just happened. I couldn’t see who it was from the sunlight in my eye but I felt a hand wrap around me lifting me to my feet and moving me away from everyone. 

Still crying I looked up to see who my knight and shining armor was and staring back down at me were those beautiful brown eyes. He pulled me into his arms and said those words that I will never forget my entire life.

To be continued… x

Her Love is Infinite - Chapter 1

Hey guys!

Ok so this is the first time I do something like this and I'm VERY nervous. I'm so much more used to writing essays for school yet never once written a story so please be gentle. :x

I pretty much have an idea of how I'd like the story to progress and the characters that will be in the story and hope you like it.

With love,

-F

Isn't it amazing how one person can set off a chain reaction that changes your life forever? That same person can either make you feel like you're worth the world or be the reason people are deprived from seeing a smile on your face but no matter what they did to you, you'd always love them and cherish the memories you had with each other.

Let me take you back to when it all started.

It was break time. I had just started the 9^th grade in a new school, new teachers, new environment and new faces. Since I was the new kid, I was pretty much left alone sitting in the corner of the play ground watching all the other boys and girls play and have fun. Just before the break was over a crowd of students started to gather around in a circle so I went to see what was going on.

Just as I get there I saw a boy that I recognized from my first period class pull a lollypop out of a little girl's mouth, push her down and smash the lollypop on the ground while the crowd is cheering him on and laughing as the little girl watches with tears in her eyes. When seeing this, he starts teasing her "awhh is the little baby gonna cry??". That's when something in my mind just snapped and I walked straight up to him and punched him square in the nose. Total silence. The laughter died down immediately as everyone was shocked to see the new boy do something like that on his first day.

I went up to her, helped her off the floor and moved her away from the crowd that was now all walking back towards the school since recess was over. I held the still crying girl into a warm hug ensuring her "I promise I'll never let anyone hurt you as long as I'm around." She put her head on my shoulder and from that moment on, I knew I was responsible for this girl.

To be continued...